Introduction

Yet again, this is another attempt to create another blog. My guess is that this one will last for two to three months while I "sort out" what's in my head, but as with all things I touch, I'll lose interest, or something else will take up my interest and this blog will...as with the other ones...cease to exist.

We'll just let this one be considered a mind dump.

So I'm sitting in urgent care because my friend my have had a heart attack...at the age of 29. Who gets heart attacks at that age? Then again, we are not exactly a normal bunch.

Birthdays are indeed a sad time (JH was right, she asked me if I was sad). Every year around this time, I look back, examine and take inventory of the things in my life. Questions like:

What's going well?
What's going poorly?
Are you enjoying life?
Are you moving in the right direction?

It seems that the answers have been the same for the last few years, which would either suggest that things aren't so bad because it's not a roller coaster ride or that things really suck, because I've been unable to "break the cycle."

Who knows. All the books you read, all the people you talk to, talk about the fact that you don't want to live for your work. Yet, you take a look at those that have been extraordinarily successful and they've made significant sacrifices to get there, most often times with the scarifces coming in from the personal side of life.

I guess the question that I really need to answer, or maybe I can answer now is: Do I have the drive and devotion to get to that level of the game?

NO. (I was tempted to change this answer but I'm not going to)